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It’s That Feeling Again :(

August 22, 2012

Please, don’t get me wrong.

I grew up with a lot of love.

And I don’t lie in bed sulking in my good – not – greatness.

I am well aware of how much God has blessed me.

I’m pretty much happy all the time.

And it’s normal for me to smile when I’m angry or in a bad mood.

So, yeah.

Please don’t get me wrong.

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Insecure isn’t the word I’m looking for.

But, it’s really close.

I’m only writing because I felt the feeling again.

The I – don’t – deserve – it feeling?

The guilty – for – wanting – something – you – don’t – need – at – all feeling?

Have any of you every felt that?

Well.

It’s not a nice feeling.

—– —– —– —– —–

And now I have to convince myself that I shouldn’t feel guilty.

Because I shouldn’t!

Because I deserve it.

Because I’m worth it.

—– —– —– —– —–

Awkward.

—– —– —– —– —–

And here comes that other feeling.

The selfish  – for – thinking – you – deserve – it feeling?

The self – centered – for – thinking – you’re – worth – it feeling?

Have you ever felt that?

Well.

It’s not a nice feeling…

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#HASSLENGBUHAY

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4 Comments leave one →
  1. August 22, 2012 4:54 pm

    Hmm. How can you make people happy without being happy yourself? Don’t worry Kara, you are not selfish, you are merely human. And a very BEAUTIFUL AND WONDERFUL human at that. You do a lot of good to the world, never forget that! I wanna give you a hug right now. >;*<

    • August 23, 2012 10:13 am

      Don’t worry. I just had to release the feelings right at that moment. I’m alright. And you still give most uplifting messages. Thank you! Cyber hug! >:D<

      • August 24, 2012 2:45 pm

        Aww, glad you think so. ;D I wish more people read your blog. It kinda gets lonely in WordPress sometimes, but I’m glad that even though I have a public blog, people I know don’t really know about it. Like it’s semi-private.? HAHA, I’m not making any sense. I miss your legit hugs! D;

  2. August 24, 2012 6:25 pm

    I super get it! It’s like… you don’t really wanna make it all – out exposed to those you actually know. Because that’ll prevent you from writing freely?

    I really wouldn’t want to have to filter my writing… more than I already do. Defeats the purpose of a blog. :))

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